under his care, and his diary is full of anxious thoughts and
hopes for their recovery. Although less than twenty-one years old
at that time, he shows a realizing sense of the gravity of his position,
and seems to have inspired confidence in all who came in contact with him.
In the midst of arduous labors he found time to write stiray articles for
the magazines, among others an "Essay on Walking," which be believed would
cure many disorders. In the evenings he would take his violin and
play old Scotch tunes by the hour.
He gave so much satisfaction at Bellevue, where he remained nearly
three months, that on retiring from that institution in the autumn, he
was offered a place as physician to the New Yoirk Dispensary, at a salary
of a thousand dollars. He declined the proffered honor, and returned
to his old avocations.
His sensitive spirit shuddered at the dreadful
responsibility resting upon the physician, and he was constantly thinking
of the uncertainty attending every case. Urged by bis parents, he
continued to practise for some years, but it was always with reluctance,
and he gladly seized the first opportunity to abandon an occupation repugnant
to his feelings. He speaks of this feeling in his diary for October
1795:
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From "The Life of Benjamin Franklin," engraved by Dr.
Anderson for Messrs. Cooledge & Brother, about 1848.
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